i found something today
and the tears poured
it's not about me
it's not me at all
it's him
and her

wait, stop
i've been meaning to talk to you
we haven't talked in forever
and i miss how it used to be
don't you remember?
we were best friends
i trusted you
i loved you
but then you moved away
to the town of the mindless
the land of the aimless
and there, you lost yourself
you should come home
return to me

five years later
still weeping
sick to my stomach
always sick to my stomach
who the fuck am i?

so little things in my mind
so many things on my mind
i have lost my mind
buried amongst so many things

sitting in his basement
embracing
kissing
trusting

i tell myself to keep hope, keep heart.
but how does one keep something so stolen?
my heart no longer belongs to me
i've never felt this way before
strange, embarassed, excited
mostly overwhelmed
here i go again, with my word vomit
im sorry you're all i think about

i believe that everything happens for a reason
sometimes you have to wait for what you want
and sometimes, you don't know what's best for you
but life and love work themselves out
because what else can be done?
i wish i could hold his hand forever
is it him? or just me?